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Old April 2nd, 2004, 08:56 PM   #1 (permalink)
 
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Geez, I was at my local paintball place tonight and I heard a story about one of the regulars there. He's a big kid, like me, and he plays alot and just started reffing not too long ago. His mom is a crackhead and he just went to live with his dad in August. He has had no parental guidance his whole life, but I didn't know this.

So, for the story. He told the Colonel (the owner of the place), that he was thinking about killing himself. When asked why, he said because he was fat, had no friends, and noone loved him. The Colonel told him if he wanted to lose weight, they could power-walk together (which they did) and if he hung around, he would make friends (even tho I have always been really friendly towards him).

So I'm standing there, and someone asked where he was (this is how I heard the story; just heard it tonight). The Colonel said that he had tried to cut his dad and his little sister and then he tried to kill himself. He's in Circles of Care psychiatric hospital for children right now. He's there until next Teusday, and possibly longer. If you're reading this, and you know who you are, there is nothing that is bad enough to make you kill yourself. You will always have friends, and you can find one in me. If anything ever gets you down like this, go ahead and talk to me, I felt the same way when my parents got divorced, but I knew nothing was worth it. You'll always have people who care about you, and you just need to let them. This really made me think, and I just thought that everyone should know.

Sorry for the essay, but I really felt it deserved a good telling. For anybody who thinks I am lying; well, I dont even want to start on that. This is a true story.
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Old April 2nd, 2004, 09:04 PM   #2 (permalink)
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Old April 2nd, 2004, 09:05 PM   #3 (permalink)
 
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I don't, that kid does. I'm serious though. Suicide is in no way funny.
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Old April 2nd, 2004, 09:06 PM   #4 (permalink)
 
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how nice of you, if there was a kid like that near me id shure be nice to him. and that cat is awesome
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Old April 2nd, 2004, 09:08 PM   #5 (permalink)
 
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But it's seriously freaky, because when I talked to him before this happened, he was completly normal. It makes you think.
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Old April 2nd, 2004, 10:05 PM   #6 (permalink)
 
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nothing in normal life is worth killing yourself but did you know that 1/5 of all men going into the prison system or already in the system atempt suicide...and 2/5 of all women. Many end up killing themselves afterwards. of the suicides 80% are white.
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Old April 2nd, 2004, 10:06 PM   #7 (permalink)
 
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no way, is that death row or just any ole sentence
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Old April 2nd, 2004, 10:11 PM   #8 (permalink)
 
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overall thats a office of national statistics ons study...was only in canada and uk though. I don't know about U.S.
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Old April 2nd, 2004, 10:14 PM   #9 (permalink)
 
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there's more people than you think that are like that. I don't understand
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Old April 2nd, 2004, 11:24 PM   #10 (permalink)
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I've had a couple people close to me commit suicide. Suicide sux. I bet if they legalized pot there would be less suicides and more world peace.
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Old April 3rd, 2004, 12:13 AM   #11 (permalink)
 
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thats not anything too laugh about u idiot. people like you should die.
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Old April 3rd, 2004, 12:15 AM   #12 (permalink)
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are you just mad cuz Ted owned you in the trix forum?
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Old April 3rd, 2004, 01:06 AM   #13 (permalink)
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honestly i attempted it many times. Now to me its no big deal. I havent told anyone so its kinda weird for me to say. Moms a crackhead (opium marijuana). And i came so close so... I attempted many ways to. pills,gun(never mess with guns scary as hell),knife. I have a few scars from the knife. I dident have enough guts at the time. Pills worked but i dident take enough. I really should be dead. O well. 1/3 of anyone u see contiplates suicide. I have attempted it about 15 times. Mainly with a .357 revolver i always wanted to go down that way. But i wussed out all the time. After a while of doing this i thought if i used a 22 mini mag round that would be eaier i tested it out in our basment and it looked allright. Idident do it again.I havent had a feeling to attempt it in about 6 or 7 months. Anyway i have a huge story on why i would and it would take 3 pages and i have all kinds of weird crap. Drugs arent the good way out either. Keep in mind i was a devoute christinan during the attempts. I stopped practicing my faith even though i still believe stronlgly in it and the attempts seem to die down. A occasinal shot calms me down enough. and yes this is true
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this cat here is ****ing AWSOME!!!!
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Old April 3rd, 2004, 01:48 AM   #15 (permalink)
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I've done numerous things trying to kill myself.

I slit my wrists, gagged myself, and got wasted and passed out in a Price Chopper parking lot.

Heres a sad story... I was at my friends house. His life was just going down the shutters. It was his last day before going to Military school. So he called up me, my other friend, and his girlfriend and we hung out for the last time. His mom was an alcholoic and abused him. I always called her mean things and I said "If you touch me, I'm calling the police." Apparently it made it worse for him but he forgave me. Anyways, we were over there and they got a telephone call saying his father died from an injury at work. His mom just got soo much more pissed and starting cussing and hitting him. The 3 of us just watched and tried to help. His mom threw a knife at his stomach and he bled miserably. His girlfriend *one of the most beautiful girls in the school* kneeled down next to him. He got up, found his father's pistol, and shot himself in the head... right in front of us all. His girlfriend ran to me, crying, and grabbing my skin so hard. My other friend just ran out of the house. I just stood there, shaking, the thought replaying in my mind over and over. I thought, this couldn't have been... its all a dream... sadly it wasn't.

His mom just took the body, put it in a trash bag, and threw it in the river. The cops found it and arrested her. He didn't even get a respectable funeral.

His girlfriend just became a mess. A good girl who looked very sexy and was very nice became a overdosed drug queen who had sex with any man she could find. We started going out before she turned into this, but she dumped me shortly afterwards. She then smoked weed laced with Angel Dust, snuck in a neighborhood pool, and drowned.

Sorry for the long story. I wouldn't become a really good friend to this kid. You'll end up making things worse.

I know how he feels kind of.
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i think not soo stfu and choke on a viagra pill.
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1337PAINTBALLER that is a really sad story man.
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Old April 3rd, 2004, 02:50 AM   #18 (permalink)
 
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I don't, that kid does. I'm serious though. Suicide is in no way funny.
Yea, it really isn't, especially when your mom attempts it.

1337 man.... HOLY ****!!!!!!! Thats horrible, good luck getting over it.
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Suicide is never the answer - 1337 im sorry for your loss buddy, especially the way it happened. This may sound stupid but its what got a guy i knew up - Although i despise them, listen to good charlotte - hold on... Listen to the lyrics carefully and you will realize that everything gets better and you havbe your entire life ahead of you - peace
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1337-man i would prolly lose my sanity you have got to be a miracle seeing your friend go like that without going insane.....3 people in our school have died THIS YEAR and before now we havent had a death in four years......deandra austin dropped a rifle and shot himself in the chest....kateria flemmons house burned down*i just heard about it this mornin* and someone was in the house with her and i dont know who but im praying it wasnt JJ he is one of my close friend but anyway her and whoever was in the house with her died


yeah i have had a lot of people in my family like a loooong time ago committ suicide or attempt it but i have never tried
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Old April 3rd, 2004, 12:58 PM   #21 (permalink)
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It happened almost a year ago... July 27th, 2003.

He was a loyal paintballer to. He always worked very hard to play and his mom would just sell his equipment at a garage sale for very cheap. His angel, sold for 75 bucks after he paid 800 for it. He made the mistake of shooting his mom one time, so they had a paintball war. Only actual time his mom was nice to him, that I could remember.

He finally left all his paintball stuff at my house. Yet today, I still have his E-99... I don't look at it, or anything. I just leave it in a box.

The other thing is, he was looking forward to Military School. His father, always got mad at both him and his mother and knew it would be best for him. But, with his father dead, he wouldn't be able to go. And more abuse would come to him.

He knew he was going to die. I tried everything I could to make him feel better, even my family helped.

I still talk to his older sister today, she moved out the day she turned 16. Now shes 18 and is doing very bad finically. I try to help her out every once in a while when I can.

Our school just announced that he moved away. They don't know how he died. He was very popular and they don't want anyone to be like him.

I miss him dearly...
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Old April 3rd, 2004, 01:03 PM   #22 (permalink)
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wow, sad ****. sad ****.


And insomniak, your a deuche bag, no one likes you, you've been banned before, and you suck at forums
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Old April 3rd, 2004, 05:59 PM   #23 (permalink)
 
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wow, sad ****. sad ****.


And insomniak, your a deuche bag, no one likes you, you've been banned before, and you suck at forums
I also hope you burn

And 1337, I'm sorry.

I've had a suicidal friend before and I was lucky enough to talk her out of it. Took about 14 months. But you need to stay strong thought **** like that.
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Old April 3rd, 2004, 06:18 PM   #24 (permalink)
 
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man that stuff is crazy, im glad i never had to go through anything like that
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Old April 3rd, 2004, 07:04 PM   #25 (permalink)
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dude 1337 i felt that inside bro i am seriously sorry man....that was probably the scariest thing that ever happened to u manseriously sry....yea im a born again and som thoughts of am i even wanted came to my mind but i never did anything....thankfully....but reallyt sorry
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